It was 2 oclock in the morning. Despite there is a bowling competition going on within 7 hours from now, I couldn't sleep at all. Is raining heavily and it was cold. A nice environment to sleep.
It was a very emotional night. The night where I know I have make the very wrong step since the very beginning and I have no U-turn back.
My friend asking me for a friend birthday celebration which I insisted not to go. My mood was extremely bad and I scare I couldn't control myself. I decided to decline. Then come a sms, saying it was a join celebration for my birthday as well. Though I am still heavy hearted to go, I decide to turn up at least not to disappoint my friend.
I know my friend is always there to make me happy. In deed, the 3 hours together was filled with laughter and enjoyment. Now the moment I am alone, I flash back what happen lately.
I know is way too late for a return. I know I am stuck in no way. I know jeolousy have added more fire. I understand money is always the root of all evil....But I am human. I have emotion. I do have anger.
Too many what happen today is small matter. Principally wise, I am not happy with such treatment, but logically wise, who have the power, have it all.
My friend refresh me what we learn way back, during the era where we have no other worries....
I learn that there is 3 days to earn money being:
1. Product make money - just like Bill Gates....
2. Money make money - just like many investor like Warren Buffet
3. Knowledge make money - which is simple...No need to be genius. Just use your wisdom and make money.
Lately I learn also that there might be the fourth category which is network make money.....Being serounded with hundred and maybe thousand of trustable friend, we can each join and make money. We start small but we can end up big...
Principal man earn nothing. Integrity generate no cash. That is what I always hear though I try not to believe it. Well, being auditors external and internally, I can strongly say people with integrity do not earn money fast...in deed it was a poor man. But what make an integrity person rich is the value in himself. Money can earn, but how much value can you value yourself? If you are a billionaire of 7 billion, you are a normal guy with 7 billion of assets....When you die, what respect, what honour, what rememberance you left behind? Is the pass records of humanity, wisdom and attitude that left behind.
Yup, to us who care the respect? To us who care the value we earn? To us, having a dollar and cent is what that count. The power to purchase, the power to decide, the power of freedom is what we value now...
YUP, maybe it was right...
It was right I shouldn't be angry....
It was right I have make the wrong decision....
It was right I screwed myself....
BUT, I am human...
I have done something right and I believe it was right...I deserve to be emo...