Every year, there will be moment whereby I will sit down, listen to some sentimental song and recap the journey I have taken....
Today, again the feeling emptiness is around me again....I just dunno why...
For the pass few months since I resign, I had never feel so empty before...
Start with new job, new life and new semester of study....Life become even restless nowadays....Everyday is so routine...Days of jobs and nights of studies seem so routine to me...It was so routine that sometime I get so tired that I don't want to even online or blog...
I gonna move to new house soon...Today I went to my new house and see the renovation work...It was so massive...5 years old house after rented to someone, it turn out that so many things need to be done...It seem like the whole house need to be tear down and rebuilt...
Life so meaningful when I have the chance to choose tiles, choose the door design, choose the paint color and so on....Despite my intention to rebuilt the house my way, I know the final conclusion is the house will be rebuilt my mother way...Anyway, the end it will be our home no matter who make the decision right...As my company had always said, we can always build your dream house but it was us to make it a dream HOME...
Yes HOME....that the BIG WORD in my pass 4 months diary. Home sweet home that the summary of what I wanna write today...
5 months ago, when I tender my resignation letter, not to know that I gonna back to Klang, my home...It have been years I have been residencies outside...I love the freedom and the wildness of staying alone...That for sure...
Now that I stay in house, much that I learn nothing is more perfect that a HOME. Everyday I back just to be welcome by warm meal, nice bed and happiness of being with family...
But work and study seem to disturb my life quite a lot....Everyday I come back just to see my parent worry fast...They are worried that I always back at 10 or 11pm....I arrive home with cold dishes...No thanks to my afternoon class that keep on accumulate and accumulate.....it become even worst nowadays...
Sometime when I look back, it seem more easy for me to stay outside...No need parent to worry, no need renovate new house so I can fit inside and so on....but now it seem that there is no turn back point...
Anyway life is great now....too great that now I am part of a HOME....
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
No Time
I like Money not enough show but one thing I hate the most is Time not enough...
Frankly I have no time to do a lot of things nowadays eventhough now I am having a much relax job. Juggling between work and attending ACCA P2 class extremely difficult especially ACCA class itself took me at least 3 classes in a week and this week it seem like we have total 5 day classes...
Yesterday when I was speeding like mad to the college during the raining day, a Toyota Innova overtake me. At that point of time I already speed about 120km/h in NKVE... The car speed and overtake me in split second. After about 4 seconds from overtaking me, her car was 'buang' and turn few round before it stop. As for me, I am so fortunate that I manage to escape from hitting it as my fast responce manage to avoid the whole scenario...It was like escape from the hell gate....or better heaven gate....hehe...Sad for few cars behind me, they unable to brake on time and hit one another.
Lesson to learn, I better be late than speeding...
Turning up at P2 class just to realise that I do not do Ms Menon work is same like a pig walking into a slaughter house....Everyone get scold and I know that she will picked me to answer her question... I immediately walk out of her class and let the time pass before entering into the class.
Lesson to learn, I better do homework before class...
But again 24 hours seem so limited....9 hours in office, 2 hours for traveling period, 4 hours in class, 6 hours for sleeping and remaining 3 hours will be for eating, bathing and some reading...Could it be enough?
How good if god create less day but with more time...Let said 250 days for 25 hours!!!Hehe...crazy thought!!
Frankly I have no time to do a lot of things nowadays eventhough now I am having a much relax job. Juggling between work and attending ACCA P2 class extremely difficult especially ACCA class itself took me at least 3 classes in a week and this week it seem like we have total 5 day classes...
Yesterday when I was speeding like mad to the college during the raining day, a Toyota Innova overtake me. At that point of time I already speed about 120km/h in NKVE... The car speed and overtake me in split second. After about 4 seconds from overtaking me, her car was 'buang' and turn few round before it stop. As for me, I am so fortunate that I manage to escape from hitting it as my fast responce manage to avoid the whole scenario...It was like escape from the hell gate....or better heaven gate....hehe...Sad for few cars behind me, they unable to brake on time and hit one another.
Lesson to learn, I better be late than speeding...
Turning up at P2 class just to realise that I do not do Ms Menon work is same like a pig walking into a slaughter house....Everyone get scold and I know that she will picked me to answer her question... I immediately walk out of her class and let the time pass before entering into the class.
Lesson to learn, I better do homework before class...
But again 24 hours seem so limited....9 hours in office, 2 hours for traveling period, 4 hours in class, 6 hours for sleeping and remaining 3 hours will be for eating, bathing and some reading...Could it be enough?
How good if god create less day but with more time...Let said 250 days for 25 hours!!!Hehe...crazy thought!!
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Third stage of life
It has been awhile since i start new job and I still consider myself as not quite stable in my employment yet...
For me employment is the third stage of our life after our childhood and teenagers stage... For some this is totally a transition shock, and for some they just wish they will stuck in teenager stage forever...
During childhood time, we are stress free, nothing will bother us...We worry nothing about money, we frustrate nothing about relationship, we not even care if the world is going to burst tomorrow...That how children life is....Full of freedom, free of worries, enjoyable, fun and full of energy...
During teenager stage, we worry for studies but we still naive. We progress and keep on improve....we face some challenges involving relationship, friendship and start to worry about money. We have simply stress but we move on….We think nothing much but to maximize our life with fun and entertainment
But then come the third stage of our life. Being adult life is 180 degree changes. We worry for a lot of things. We need to be independent. We need to be financial secure. We need to achieve our target and so on. We have so many things to worry and decision to make. That is why some might not be able to face these changes during transition period…
Yes indeed in this world there is lot of people who still act like kids even they are 20s or 30s…Or for some we call them kidult.
This few days I am been asking myself am I ready or am I not…I seem stuck in my teenager stage whereby I hope I do not need to worry so much. But it seem impossible because the life just have to goes on despite I try to deny this reality…
Life had never been easy to divide into job, study, family and friends. Attending class almost every weekend and sometime weekdays, attending job 9 hours per day and maybe more, just to arrive back for dinner and some chat with family before when to bed and another new days is yet to come. If there is bad time in office, the whole week will turn sour and meaningless. If there is additional class, time seem so limited for your own self. How good if we have not to worry about this…
But life is just like clock, whether you want or not, you must move on…Yes move on and change your life…Move on and change!!!
Today I awake! I gonna change too…I gonna change to be less talkative, more analytical and more careful…You too can change!!! Let change!!!
For me employment is the third stage of our life after our childhood and teenagers stage... For some this is totally a transition shock, and for some they just wish they will stuck in teenager stage forever...
During childhood time, we are stress free, nothing will bother us...We worry nothing about money, we frustrate nothing about relationship, we not even care if the world is going to burst tomorrow...That how children life is....Full of freedom, free of worries, enjoyable, fun and full of energy...
During teenager stage, we worry for studies but we still naive. We progress and keep on improve....we face some challenges involving relationship, friendship and start to worry about money. We have simply stress but we move on….We think nothing much but to maximize our life with fun and entertainment
But then come the third stage of our life. Being adult life is 180 degree changes. We worry for a lot of things. We need to be independent. We need to be financial secure. We need to achieve our target and so on. We have so many things to worry and decision to make. That is why some might not be able to face these changes during transition period…
Yes indeed in this world there is lot of people who still act like kids even they are 20s or 30s…Or for some we call them kidult.
This few days I am been asking myself am I ready or am I not…I seem stuck in my teenager stage whereby I hope I do not need to worry so much. But it seem impossible because the life just have to goes on despite I try to deny this reality…
Life had never been easy to divide into job, study, family and friends. Attending class almost every weekend and sometime weekdays, attending job 9 hours per day and maybe more, just to arrive back for dinner and some chat with family before when to bed and another new days is yet to come. If there is bad time in office, the whole week will turn sour and meaningless. If there is additional class, time seem so limited for your own self. How good if we have not to worry about this…
But life is just like clock, whether you want or not, you must move on…Yes move on and change your life…Move on and change!!!
Today I awake! I gonna change too…I gonna change to be less talkative, more analytical and more careful…You too can change!!! Let change!!!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
My eye is filled with shit…
The Hokkien have a saying that ‘eye filled with shit’ which mean someone was blinded that they can’t see something correctly….
In our life, we might have been using this word many many time to describe the events whereby you trusted someone and that person betray you….You buy something, but the thing end up to be useless and so on…
But what make us angry is when we are ‘BLIND’ when we come to trusting people. God made human into two sides, the angel and the devil. It is not an easy task to differentiate a human whether he/she is good or bad and sometime we use our own judgment, feeling and experience when come to judging people. Despite a long period of 21 going to 22 years of living in the planet of earth, sometime I do feel I have problem in judging human being. Human are one of the complex animal and yet we human try to add more complexity in the life.
You trust your friend that he/she will deliver his/her promise, but he/she didn’t…
You trust your date that he/she will turn up but he/she ffk instead…
Life is a long and tough journey. Why shall we make it even tougher?
My eye is filled with shit, not any shit but bull shit for trusting YOU!!!
In our life, we might have been using this word many many time to describe the events whereby you trusted someone and that person betray you….You buy something, but the thing end up to be useless and so on…
But what make us angry is when we are ‘BLIND’ when we come to trusting people. God made human into two sides, the angel and the devil. It is not an easy task to differentiate a human whether he/she is good or bad and sometime we use our own judgment, feeling and experience when come to judging people. Despite a long period of 21 going to 22 years of living in the planet of earth, sometime I do feel I have problem in judging human being. Human are one of the complex animal and yet we human try to add more complexity in the life.
You trust your friend that he/she will deliver his/her promise, but he/she didn’t…
You trust your date that he/she will turn up but he/she ffk instead…
Life is a long and tough journey. Why shall we make it even tougher?
My eye is filled with shit, not any shit but bull shit for trusting YOU!!!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I just too sad....
Frankly speaking, I really start to neglect this blog....It was so difficult to find a sweet time and slowly express what I really want to write. Even my camera is dying off due to long retirement in my cupboard....
Today is never a good day nor would it seem to improve day to come....This week is full of challenges and nothing come smooths except the surpising ACCA result. Others seem to be a disaster in my life....which I have no mood to even blog about it...
Ok....just to sad for words....
I promise this weekend will update this blog but not today......
Today is never a good day nor would it seem to improve day to come....This week is full of challenges and nothing come smooths except the surpising ACCA result. Others seem to be a disaster in my life....which I have no mood to even blog about it...
Ok....just to sad for words....
I promise this weekend will update this blog but not today......
Monday, February 16, 2009
Yeahhhhhhhhh
I have no other word but to shout....
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I make it.....P1 and P3 down.....P2 here I come....
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I make it.....P1 and P3 down.....P2 here I come....
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Memory down the lane....
Dated 5 years back, we saw each other faces for the very first time...
After a year of pre-u studies, we splits to persuade what we dream of...
And yesterday, we finally manage to gather back although not all but majority of the J4A1 classmate in a very meanigful night...
Start with Sizzling hot and stuffy Steamboat and Barbeque Buffet at Hoi Tong and then 'low sang' at Yen Thoong house and finally having endless fun whole night long will for sure be the sweetest memory for most of us.
Why not? especially friends that we had never met for years like Ying Fei, Fong Yeah, Ooi Mei, Hooi Chia (hope I spell it correctly) and Evonne....
Although it was a short night, but it was memory down the lane...of strong bonding friendship of J4A1....
Many Thanks to those who drive from as far as Seremban and Kuantan just for the meaningful night....Those who squeeze precious time from busy schedule to be part of the attendee. .....Shyan Hui who still called the friends to attend this events although been hospitalize during CNY.....Yen Thoong whose willingly allow us to mess up the house.....and everyone for the who really turn out this time.... 33 people is a record breaking. Hopefully next year all will be able to attend... See ya next year!!! Happy Chap Goh Mei
After a year of pre-u studies, we splits to persuade what we dream of...
And yesterday, we finally manage to gather back although not all but majority of the J4A1 classmate in a very meanigful night...
Start with Sizzling hot and stuffy Steamboat and Barbeque Buffet at Hoi Tong and then 'low sang' at Yen Thoong house and finally having endless fun whole night long will for sure be the sweetest memory for most of us.
Why not? especially friends that we had never met for years like Ying Fei, Fong Yeah, Ooi Mei, Hooi Chia (hope I spell it correctly) and Evonne....
Although it was a short night, but it was memory down the lane...of strong bonding friendship of J4A1....
Many Thanks to those who drive from as far as Seremban and Kuantan just for the meaningful night....Those who squeeze precious time from busy schedule to be part of the attendee. .....Shyan Hui who still called the friends to attend this events although been hospitalize during CNY.....Yen Thoong whose willingly allow us to mess up the house.....and everyone for the who really turn out this time.... 33 people is a record breaking. Hopefully next year all will be able to attend... See ya next year!!! Happy Chap Goh Mei
Monday, February 2, 2009
I lost something on me....
I lose something.... but i cannot figure out what was it...
Since December last year, I have lost interest on updating the blog. Everytime I wrote pages and pages of posting but ended up deleting it. I just don't know....
I lost my ability to write also...Sometime I can't even complete a sentences for my posting. Why? Why?
Maybe what some of my friend saying is correct. I have nothing better to do rather than writting for ghost to see...hehe...
Anyway...Bored! That the only word.... I ignore posting about Chinese New Year that I experience.... I ignore about my gathering with friends..... I ignore posting what I suppose to post....
Why?
Anyway to compesate all this, I put up some photo as replacement of wording....
Since December last year, I have lost interest on updating the blog. Everytime I wrote pages and pages of posting but ended up deleting it. I just don't know....
I lost my ability to write also...Sometime I can't even complete a sentences for my posting. Why? Why?
Maybe what some of my friend saying is correct. I have nothing better to do rather than writting for ghost to see...hehe...
Anyway...Bored! That the only word.... I ignore posting about Chinese New Year that I experience.... I ignore about my gathering with friends..... I ignore posting what I suppose to post....
Why?
Anyway to compesate all this, I put up some photo as replacement of wording....
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