Emotional unstable

AUDITOR = All U Do Is Think Of Resigning....

Well, the feeling had emerge again since 4 months ago...

When the water is calm, dont ever think that there is no crocodile inside the water. Life is so unpredictable. When time are good, work happilly, every second pray for ESOS price to go up, working so hard to achieve our KPI...everything will seem good....Sometime is just too good to believe...

Yeah, one small dirty paint can destroy the whole drawing...That is what happen few months back. Despite attempt to bring back things to normal, nothing seem to improve....Everyday start work with draggy body hoping the lunch hour appear soon....After lunch, pray hard that the clock strike 6pm to go back home.....That was one of the worst feeling ever...

Just dont like the feeling.....yeah.....i been backstab and i feel like dying.....but because of ESOS........i gonna be patience....just for another few months....God, bless me with strength to move on....

Some snapshot of 2010

Start the new year with a bang....CNY gathering a success although a smaller turnout compare to 2009
College Group

Secondary School Group

Follow by a good trip to Bangkok as the start of my first trip of 2010



High low, high low in office until I hurt myself in Penang.....


End up in Vietnam and come back with lot of sin.....thanks to the work


6 hours after landed from my Vietnam flight, run for Eco Run organise by my company....End up, i pick up the interest and I completed few run.....
4.5km Eco Run
6km Admiral Methodis Run
7km McDonald's Olympic Day Run
5km Nike Run
6km Mizuno Run
12km Run4it, Klang
5km KFC World Hunger Walk
10km CICM Run
6km Melaka Coastal Run






Yearly gathering with K-worker


More gathering with close friend....From i-city to Bon odori....and not forgetting tonnes of weekend adventure....hiking oh ah pek hill, Broga Hill and many more



My second trip of the year....Singapore

Continue with Star Cruise with Hurley


The most memorable event in 2010 must be me passing all ACCA paper...thank god, i make it



Start to get involve in lot of Setia Team event...Firstly, Telematch for Family Day


Follow by Treasure Hunt and Paintball

Not forgetting the Skytrek



The year end with another bang as I dare myself to become a mermaid and won the best dress in Annual Dinner. Besides, our dance performance won the heart of the crowd making us the winner for the very first time in HQ history....




My grandpa pass away....I miss out the very well planned ATV ride...double the sad..

Christmas all the way to Malacca..


End the year with low profile by escape to Cameron Highland

2011 Resolution

Is another new year and is time for new resolution...

Well, gonna make it simple and easy this year....

1. Time to back to school....Try my very best to improve English...
2. Take more time to improve myself (maybe into more languages and self studies)
3. Earn better $$$$$
4. Get healthier....More muscle, lose fat...
5. Run for at least 5 run competitions....Target to run for more than 14km this year..
6. Keep posting on my 2 beloved blog.
7. To have great Bali and Hong Kong trip...
8. Sell my ESOS at good price....finger crossed, RM 7.00
9. Less Drama in office.....Less stress.....
10. Invested in some investment...
11. Continue charity work
12. To have family and friends together with me along the year....Hope they all healthy all the way....

2010 Reso Recap

1. Kill ACCA exam….must wear the robe and mortar this year!!!
RESULT : Achieve

2. Better income either side income, better offer or increment!!!
RESULT : Increment + Promotion + Bonus + Drama in office

3. Healthy Healthy Healthy…. Sick record of less than 3 time
RESULT : Sick result is 2 but fake sick……secret

4. Weight management…..must lose weight by 5kg…
RESULT : Achieve, time to tone up

5. Upkeep my 2 blog…
RESULT : Partially surviving….

6. New investment….
RESULT : Unit Trust!!!!

7. Save quarter of my salary
RESULT : Fail Miserably

8. Charity work….this time not monetary but voluntary…
RESULT : Probably do the most charity in my life. YES! Achieve

9. Earn my first cheque from nuffnang….which kinda impossible with my visitor hits now…
RESULT : As predicted, FAIL

10. Buy a laptop for myself…
RESULT : Accountant mentality, still can use, then save it lo….FAIL

11. Buy a DSLR for myself…
RESULT : Decided to discontinue the camera freak! Bye bye DSLR

12. Strike a lottery….Wahaha…dreaming….but let put it for a hope then….I can’t think of any new resolution…
RESULT : When I buy never kena, when I didn’t buy it strike! I think Genting is better place for me!!!!

2010 Recap

January – Start the year with a dull beginning. After a big fight in office, now it becomes a dramatic place to work. Colleague resigned, get wed and flying to oversea.

February – Dull Chinese New Year as parent when for holiday. Have a great blast celebration with friend but was disappointed with ACCA result.

March – Busy month full of work and classes. Feel like staying in offices for ages without much movement. When to Bangkok for a good trip…I am dreaming to go back there again!!!

April – Busy with work again and now is Penang….Meet great friend in Penang but sadly difficult to contact him back since he fly to Hong Kong to work.

May – Office politic become major drama and is affecting our life. Been ask to fly over to Vietnam to work for 2 weeks. Good experience in Vietnam….

June – Fly back from Vietnam and in 6 hours time, I am ready to run for my company marathon….would say FUN RUN…4.5km only…. Seat for my ACCA exam.

July – Work as usual. Time seem to move very slowly. Start to active in company activities such as badminton and bowling competition.

August – Bulan puasa and everything seem slowing down. Lotsa gathering with friends. Great news of all, I finally an affiliate of ACCA.

September – Probably the most exciting month ever. Start with my second running competition which is 6km Admiral Methodist Run follow by great company Family Day. When for company charity and volunteer club event to orphanage home. Run for 7km Olympic Day Run. Company Hari Raya Open House with great food and great dance.

October – Continuous of non stop 7 weeks of excitement. First week of October I have my ACCA convocation and follow by company treasure hunt. Second week I attempt the Computerized Unit Trust Exam and pass it and run for Nike Run the next day. Follow by another week of running in UPM for Mizuno Wave Run and paintball competition. The last week I have my skytrek adventure follow by KFC World Hunger Day Charity Walk and Klang Run4it 2010 Run (12km).

November - Tiring month. Been selected for annual dinenr sub committee and we plan to win big….Not really aiming to win big but actually hoping not to come back empty handed. Lots of dance training and spending time doing props. Become the teh tarik idol in the company during Deeparaya Luncheon. Although I do not win, but I bet I give quite a competition to the others. To end my November, I run for CICM 10km run.

December – The month ended with sweet and bitter. It start with lots of drama in office follow by a wedding of my colleague. Then come the big night, the annual dinner. We do our very best and we sweep away some good prizes, lauding our step in annual dinner. We are no longer the underdog! I give a huge surprise to the world by appearing as mermaid. It was pre-planed but not much people know it. A week later, I get a shocking news of my grandpa pass away. It was sad but that is life. I take it as it is. Christmas celebration was great in Malacca and follow by a blast in Cameron Highland for New Year.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

I would like to wish everyone, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...

Enjoy your holiday and faster clear all your 2010 resolution......

Lost Direction

This blog have been inactive for somewhile...I totally lost direction of what to post. There is even time, I seriously thinking of shutting down this blog. I don't find anything interesting to blog about nowadays. Blog about politic been badly criticised and even threaten. Blog about emo emo stuff, will end up been gossip topic of the world. Blog about lifestyle is great but now life is so stable that there is nothing much to blog about. Food and travel was highly transfer to my food blog....End up, I am killing my blog silently....

That is life.....sometime, we just lost direction....

Is December. We are merely 30 days left for year 2010 and I am seriously thinking of what have I achieved. I start to find back my resolution that I make in the blog. Well, I dun really remember what resolution I have made but frankly I believe I achieve at least half of it...

Well, first half of the year was wonderful....Life is so meaningful.....Second half of the year been very emotional....There is too many negative chi in life although in bright side, I have more fun activities during the second half. Well, sometime if we look on the negative side too much, we lost our attention, our direction...

Well, rest assure, 2010 is a great year for me....So many first time experience...So many life memory capture in mind.....So many new friend I met...

Life is about change....I remember what I said in beginning of year. Well, I evolve...Good or bad, lets the world judge it....To me, I have my cunning part despite my innocent look...Wearing mask in life is not my character but sometime, that is life....

Well, lets give life a change....30 days left, how much more can I change? Let see....

Slacky again

Yeah....it have been again another month of slacking my blog...

Erm...lets do a recap of what have just happen in past few weeks....

From Mid of September until yesterday, it have been one of the longest and tiring week. I have been continuous waking up early and make myself occupied. I sign up with Celebrity Fitness on early September and currently still on the way to complete my personal trainer session.

This 8 weeks saw extreme improvement on myself. I lost about 5kg...Besides that I have been running for short distance run. This year itself i completed 6 running races being Setia Eco Run (4.5km), Admiral Methodist Run (6km), McD Olympic Day Run (7km), Nike Run (5km), Mizuno Fun Run (5km) and Run4it (12km). I also participate in the KFC be the movement walk. All this event is to occupied my free time especially weekend.

Besides that, I have been hanging out with my colluegue quite frequent nowadays. Been for some outing to Malacca, company charity work, company family day, skytrek adventure, treasure hunt and even paintball competition.

I also have my second convocation early October and my itchy hand end me up with another exam (Computerized Unit Trust Exam) which of course I pass.

i look at my calendar on my table now and I couldn't believe that every single weekend in September and October are fully filled up with events.

Well, for November, my calendar is still pretty blank and is time for me to be slacky...More time for sleeping...hehehe

10/10/10

Is the day where it appear once in 100 years...What have u done on that day?

On the auspicious day, we are also been shock with news of bus crash that kill 12 people. According to news, some victim are still strugling for life in ICU.

What when wrong anyway? Why is our buses always get involve in deadly crash? Is it the problem with our bus operator? bus driver? our infrastructure? weather? or the mentality of road user?

Well, we just cross our finger, just hope that there will be lesser cases of such tragedy....whats more a tragedy that happen on such a beautiful day...10/10/10

Marina Bay Sands

My 2nd Convo

Yesterday I have my second convocation in my life. This round it was for my ACCA convocation. It was held in Sunway Convention Centre. ALthough the event was badly managed, overall we still have lot of fun there.

Due to the poor arrangement, I was the first person on stage and that caught me a surprise. I bet I end up with ugly face expression on stage due to the shock...

I would like to take the opportunity to thanks to all my friend who rush from far to my convocation.

Thanks to Nicole and Anne for the blue roses....and travel so far for my big day.
Thanks to Ji Leng and Kent for the sweet pink roses...You make me fancy of roses now.
Thanks to Fong Yeah for rushing from work to my convo with beautiful soft doll..
Thanks to Jamie for becoming the camerawoman...
Thanks to all who make it that day for a sweet memory...

Is just historical

Eating mooncake while listening to "yua liang tai piau wo de jia" and staring on moon outside of my window, I suddenly feel I am so old....

I remember mid autumn was a time for lot of fun. I use to have parade with little bunny lantern....We walk the whole neighbourhood while sing the moon song. I remember how some neighbour will lay a table full of fruits as offering to the goddess of moon. It was once said that 2 god have fall in love each other and since it was forbidden in goddess world, they are seperated and only on the full moon of 8th moon in lunar calendar, they are allow to meet. This is why today is also consider as valentine day for some chinese. Well, not much people believe it nowadays after our astraounaut found there is nothing in moon except rock!

Beside parading, I remember i always play masak masak with my neighbour....Gear with 2 brick and one Milo tin cover, we melt few candle as oil for cooking. Simply find grass, wild chilli near the longkang, wild berries beside the drain and some mint leave and curry leave.....the aroma created was so nice.....

I remember how at the end of the day, we burn the candle and campak all the paper lantern and let it burn....We only keep our nice bunny, chicken, sailormoon, ultraman or what so ever shape lantern while the cheap paper lantern will never survive till next year festival.....

It was all old story....Is history now....Remember the past is so nostalgic...

How i hope time can be turn off and we are back to childhood where there is only happiness and no worries....

"Yua liang yuan, yua liang yuan, yua liang chou chai wo de jia"......Happy Mid Autumn....

Happy Mid Autumn

Hope everyone enjoy great moon cake while appreciate the round moon tonight...

Happy Mid Autumn to my dearest reader....

Run...run for it

This Thursday, in conjuction with Malaysia Day, I would be running for Admiral Methodist Run in Bandar Botanic....

Hope I can finish on time.....seem to gain weight lately so I have no choice but to sign up for gym and tone up...

Ya...I will run....run for my health

Jam is finally over

The controversial Jambatan Kota in Klang is finally done. The bridge is finally open for user for both way and Klangite can no longer suffer heavy jam everyday...

After years of suffering, I realise, there is actually no different between the old road and the new bridge except it was uplifted to higher level and create more uneven road.....Still don't understand why driver need to go up and down 3 bridges to go to federal highway!!!

I feel like blogging

Out of sudden, today i got mood to blog....

It have been a while since my serious blog post. For the past few months I have done a lot of things but I have yet to disclose it in my blog. The much anticipated post on Vietnam seem ages to be posted.....My happy moment of passing exam was not even been 'heboh heboh' here.....not even about my promotion in work place...

Last week I have a holiday in Singapore and Star Cruise in penang and up to now there is not even a single photo uploaded here.....I feel so guilty...

I dunno why....maybe i am no longer as open, transparent and willing to share so much as what I did last time....or maybe due to changes of working lifestyle and environment....

But, i make a pledge today that I gonna start back blogging very soon...with more trips....more foods.....more event....and definately more fun...

Near to perfect

Monday was a perfect day.....well, near perfect...

In the early morning I arrive the meeting hall a little early so I could walk around the sales gallery as well. I maintain a positive mind although I know the day will be doom, sad and disappointment.

I received call from my boss saying he will be on medical leave. He left some message and work for us to follow up....Well, as usual, I say Ok....knowing today my mind will be distrected.

The forum cum meeting started at 9 and drag until 12noon. By 11am, everyone is tired and most people mind are no longer with those presentation.

Is 12.15noon, one of my friend text me "Result out! Faster check".......I ignored.

2 minutes later, another message coming in. "Hey how result"

I reply my friend...."how is yours? i on forum, no internet to check" and he reply short after that with a good news that he pass his P1 paper....

My mind was no longer with the forum. My hand start to ichy and was wondering around whether should I borrow the iphone from the manager sitting beside me...What if I fail? Whole hall will know it...

Suddenly a sms come in.."Hey joo....congrat, your P2 63, P5 51...u graduated"

I know this is reason to be happy. Knowing my friend had hack my email to check my result....

I choose not to believe the sms and i ask her back how true is that...how come she can check my result....

On the same time, since i already know my result, i decided to borrow the iphone from the manager beside just to check the result....

When i on the Gmail, i notice the result was yet to be read.......I paused....I ask myself, is my friend cheating on me...Is Unread!!!

Taking a deep breath, i decided to click on it. My manager on my left are equally excited while the manager on my left who borrow me the iphone are more than excited to also know how i perform........

When the message open, my eye was not actually looking at the marks....I was searching around the marks but I just couldn't find...Maybe I was too excited....The only word i saw is "you are now affiliate".........

For the rest of the forum, I swear, my mind was halfly gone.....SMS pouring in as thought it was my birthday....I was far more than happy but I just can't show how happy am since top management are in the meeting....

To me the day was totally the most happy day in life. Is just a perfect day......Minutes and hours pass by.......I learn that there is lot other was actually not that lucky as me this round...I know that my day wasn't that perfect anyway...

It have been 3 days since the result release.....Now what i feel is just a normal day.......Erm....seem like passing ACCA is just a day happiness....

I am a happy pig today

No word can ever describe my feeling now....

I am just too happy....for everything.....

I have finally done it....I am now ACCA affiliate....yahooooooooooooooo

Friday the 13

I am down with Influenza again.....Sore Throat, Fever, Flu and Cough....well a full package of sickness....just like buying 3 in 1 coffee...

Start to have mild sore throat on the first day of hungry ghost month....follow by worst continueous sickness until I was really down on Friday 13...

Anyway, black friday that come once this year proven to be real black day for me....Sleep in the ebd for 17 hours hoping to cure my sickness..

Just now on the way back to my house, the radio is airing some horrible story about hungry ghost month...

There is saying that during the prayers "Por Tor" there should be no item that is still alive been put on top of the food table that is serve for the unseen soul...There is one case of a parent accidentally put her baby on top of the table unattended. After a few second, when the parent try to look for the baby, it is gone. There is a pool of blood left at the table.....True or not...I am not sure...

There is also saying that during hungry ghost month it is normal that you will hear people knocking at your door especially during mid night. Then it will be follow by the sound of "susu...susu".....Rumour saying that parent and infant die due to poverty thus the soul is finding for people to give them milk...

I study in a school that is the oldest in Klang. Many story about how our school is haunted especially our school field is used to be the place where japanese army march and torture those victim.....There is story from the scout that they hear japanese song and people marching during the midnight....Our school lab is also full of story as it was place where bodies were buried. There is story of hands appearing from the ground trying to drag some student down....To add the horror, our biology lab is always cold, dark and full of specimen of dead snake, bird, fish, mice, human organ and human bones....

What ever it is.....there is one chinese saying that kinda true if you believe it....Don't feel scare if you do nothing wrong....I believe soul will not be harmful...

Yeah....i hope so.....hope tonight i still can sleep nicely without any horror nightmare...

I am small small bird

Weak.....
My wings are small...
My wings are weak...
My muscle is not powerful to lift my heavy body
to fly away...
and find my very own freedom

Exhausted
My stamina is lack...
My breath get slow...
My wings is just too tired to flip again...

Why am I such a small bird?...
When would I fly like an eagle then?...




I know one day....I will grow stronger...
I would then soar as high as eagle...
Time will bring the powerful eagle to an old eagle
I would then surpass the arrogant eagle...
Because I am now a small small bird...
That flip the wings so hard...though it was tiring...
Trying to go to same level as the eagle...
I know one day....I will be flying next to eagle...
and finally....people will look the DOVE differently...